Confessions Of A Food Addict......

I was talking with a friend about all of the silly things I do when it comes to food. We were giggling about wanting to eat candy and chocolate because we were feeling so stressed. I was saying that there are times I am thinking to my self......"is it bed time for the kids yet?"I know we just finished dinner and it's only 7 pm but I think the kids are looking awfully sleepy"! Once they are in bed then my thoughts turn to......"Honey, you're tired right? Don't you want to go to bed too"?

I am thinking these things because once everyone is in bed, It's my time. The house is all quiet and I can sit down to watch my shows on the DVR, and of course what do I want to do while I am watching my shows..........Eat a delicious salty snack(OK, so the portion size is more like a meal but my rule is, "if no one can see you eating the food, then the calories don't count" :). My salty snack is usually followed a small sweet treat just to even things out.

There are other times when I am so not hungry, yet my mind is thinking how delicious some cookies or cupcakes would be. Thankfully, I spare my self the calories most of the time because cookies and cupcakes are labor intensive and you have to wait for them to bake. (I have a slight phobia about eating raw cookie dough and cake batter so that's not a temptation. I have to wait for them to bake to dive in.) I can literally be completely satisfied after eating and immediately start to look for something sweet to eat. There are times when I try to find a reason to have to run to the store so I can pick up something sweet and eat it in the car before I get home. I even hide candy wrappers in the garbage can so my husband won't know how many Hershey Kisses or Reese's Peanut Butter Cups I really ate in one day.

"Me" time and food seem to go hand in hand.........It's my best friend. It never lets me down and I always feel happy when I am eating......until I have eaten so much that I feel sick, which leads to the resolve that I will never eat that much again, starting tomorrow.....and then when tomorrow comes I am hungry so the resolve goes out the window......and if I still have anything left, I rationalize that I have to finish it off so that it's out of the house. I don't want to throw it away because that would be so wasteful, so eating is the only logically option.......